Saturday, August 9, 2008
Baptisim | Jesus | Love | Life | Life LONG
Oi bin busy for a week now wasn't able to post up in here . Wow i feel like i am foreign to my own blog . Ahh... crap. So like its been an exciting week for me had my ups and downs but yeah mostly ups .
So to start with. I was at my Di's house Sangeeta di aka Sister in Christ . Well i got baptized this weekend and yea it was a really nice subtle experience . Yea i took my Vows and now i am namingly a Christian but yeah we all are aren't we . Well atleast when we are born we are more alike all our thoughts match its when we grow up things start to change . We are all children of God . I know you have heard this a lot but have you ever thought about it ?.
WHY DO I THINK THERE SHOULD BE A HIGER POWER?
Its not the old books that made me jump in and take a baptisim . No its not that its what i experienced and saw with my own eyes felt and belived . Some of you are athiest and don't believe in God . Do you really think this was just a coincidence ?. That earth came up in the right position distance from the sun . And land water was formed . Don't you think its quite impossible. You know actually you are made up of dirt and sand . And when we die we go back in and mix with it .
Life is just too perfect to be a coincidence . For Eg: Humans we have got a complex way of understanding free will and ability to learn . But yes its people's choices that lead them to believe in something . Just imagine your a bunch of particles clocked up together so that all parts function properly . So who do you think made us this way?. Don't say we adapted two eyes two ears we also could have had two noses and two mouth yet in a way we are just perfect .
Well i don't think this is a coincidence and i believe some one up there made us that way . Yet we ignore to find out who he is . We deny and just contiune to waste our lives of petty earnings in surival for a living . Every man woman is built free and she can do anything and everything he/she please . For instance take a good long look at your hands . They move at your command they do what you want them to do and yeah there's a lot of science involved to build such a mechanism . What if its proud owner is God its self . A higer power who built you into what you are . We don't know how but yes as i said before its just beliving in what we stand for.
So WHY DID I CHANGE MY RELIGION?
(This is my testimony on why i changed my religion or beliefs )
I was a Muslim . I was born and bought up in KSA aka Saudi Arab Riyadh . I had an abusive father he was totally into chain smoking hitting and making us suffer in all different ways but yeah that's life . I used to pray to Allah a lot . I cried a lot but in those years i never used to wait for any reply i never expected one . Its how we were taught . Don't expect anything from the all knowing just keep worshiping as you will do this only for your own benifit of going to heaven . I never did see and point in my prayers i weeped at night and prayed to him but yeah nothing did ever happen. B/w i was a regular prayer 5 times a day fasting and all read the Quran also. He even used to kick me out of the house for a whole night . I used to sleep on my stair well with a cat i loved he even scatted her out when she got a little bigger .
The problem wasn't with me only when my father got kicked out of his office he didnt really tell the reason . But yeah we came to know that he was demoted cause he abused the staff a lot well he was a senior Executive manager . That position is quite hard to get in reputed companies . Took 20 years to get him there and guess what . And when ever we used to goto Mecca the holy place for all Muslims he used to shout at us there as well . The point is my religious experience wasn't so pleasent .
So like its been three years since we moved to India . We had the same problems here . I had a hard time with him . In school here . He never let me take up tutions for my studies and always had me feel down . I graduated high school and moved on to college . I did my first two years there i faced many problems with my father . I even flunked in some subjects but yeah i always did well in the computer ones . I was always dissatisfied with my marks. So the year passed and i can't even mention there were loads of ocassions when i just thought i should commit suiside just cause of my father . He's a stero type he never listens he like Asks a stupid question when i answer it he again asks the same FREAKING question that made me mad a lot .
He just likes to abuse an abusing machine . He has stopped hitting me recently when i started to defend myself . I just felt soo sad and lonely . He never even let me call my friends this is the reason i could never have some real good friends that i liked i was more of an exile . I had the potential to become one but when i was down i never talked to any one in my class . Even if i did i tried but always would end up losing another friend . Happened to me many times if my friend called up when my father was angry with me he would abuse them and then eventually my friends would get angry .
My father should be the one feeling ashamed but he's proud and happy at his shouting . Well i am not the one to judged but yeah i wish i was never born anywhere near him .
WHAT WAS MY CHURCH LIFE LIKE ?
So it was my 2nd year at college i was in a gaming clan in it i found my best friend Aditya . Well we never really did talk before this. And it was the last day when our clan was about compete with a few rivals . We weren't any official clan our teams were decided on the last day . So like it was like fluke of luck like most people would say but i say other wise God has a plan for everyone. And yes he had a plan for me too . So like after the matches were over i was going back home walking on the mile road stretch , so i found Adi too walking i kind of started talking to him then he asked would you like to come to church with me i was like ... (well i didnt have anything better to do that day ) so i said yes.
So, as we headed from his home to the church we didn't have any transportation problem which is rare because he said he never could catch a cab towards Palm Mord . Even though to took off late we got there in time for the prayer. And i talked to di for a few moments i felt the loving atmosphere in the room which i hardly see anywhere every one was soo friendly . Well practically made 10 new friends the same day but yea later on acquainted with them properly. I had many testimonies in the past few months . Well i really didnt believe in God that much at that moment . I thought all Gods were like Allah . They never answer to your prayers . But i was wrong and Jesus helped me make this believe go away .
MY TESTIMONIES OR MIRACLES THAT OCCURED DURING THE MONTH !
Well i had number of testimonies during the month meeting Aditya was one of them. I had neumerous transportation testimonies as well. Before i used to this its just an infactuation that i pray when some vehicle is coming near . But one day there were a LOT of people stand out there waiting for a cab well for about half an hour . So finally a Gurgaon bus comes in . Well i had many incidents with the bus namely accident so i wasn't keen enough i had prayed for a cab and i got a bus well i didn't understand then. So like i said to myself keep waiting he will send you what you need . So guess what after every one had climbed on the bus the stop had nearly emptied . At the moment a cab came up stopped near where i was standing and guess what i got in easily with out any problem. And i thought this was God's Plan he knew i was fat and lazy well its the truth don't laugh so he did this for me . My father who was abusive stopped abusing me now he's just normal but yeah sometimes if i let him get to me then only it happens if i resent and start praying he goes away . Non of my prayers came true while i was a Muslim . Even my brother and me shared a testimony . If you guys would like to know more just leave a comment i will get back to you ASAP .
I took my VOWS 3rd july and i believe in him more than ever although i still am not perfect but yes i am striving to follow in his path . And i really want to thank Sangeeta Di If it wasn't for her we would never have been together and i would never have know Jesus the way i do now.
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